As much as I fight and get very irritated with my Mom, I have come to a conclusion here lately. I rely on her for so much; most importantly, my sanity. She is the only help I really have with the kids, and with her in Atlanta I have been going insane! Emma and Nathan have been raging assholes for the past two months, and I have been their sole care provider since then.
Hell, I can't get Gary to get into bed before 3 am now that he doesn't have to be at work at 10. He stays up all night and then sleeps late. Meanwhile, I am threatening to blow my brains out to no avail.
I am not asking for anyone to take my kids forever, but GODDAMN if I am not about to throw myself off a bridge! One day a week, for half the day I get a break. While I am eternally grateful for that time, I don't see why he couldn't get up with them more than once a week. He seems to think because he works outside our home, that he is more deserving of sleep or something.
He apparently "likes to stay up late" it gives him "time to himself". Meanwhile, I have ZERO time to myself and I am seriously headed towards a breakdown. I suppose it's easy to think I am trying to be "emo" or "over dramatic" but honestly, I'm not. I can feel myself spiraling towards a very bad depression and I am trying to tell someone before it gets too bad.
I just wish someone would listen.
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I can't believe you don't have anyone up there who can help you out. That one chick needs to watch your babies like you watch hers. And if Gary needs time to himself, one would assume you needed it just as much. And it's not like you can put the kids down and stay up all night playing. I wish I could help.
ReplyDeleteThat girl is apparently trying to have Gary fired now, presumably to get his job. Shady bitch. Today is one of Gary's off days, and he is still in bed and I am awake with the kids after being up ALL NIGHT because Nathan wouldn't sleep.
ReplyDeleteEveryone else is busy with their own thing, I can't even get anyone to watch the kids for a few hours; let alone over night or anything. I'm just sooo TIRED.
Well, hang in there Tabby. Emit will be in preschool everyday before you know it. And I can't believe that Joy bitch. I guess the best friendship is over. How come Gary's coworkers are always taking giant dumps on him?
ReplyDeleteYour guess is as good as mine. They always seem to want to take advantage of both of us, maybe we shouldn't be so fucking nice. LOL
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